Glow

Hello!

Today’s blog post is something I’ve been meaning to share. Being busy with school and work can often lead me to a lot of different emotions, one being how I view myself in this vast world we live in.

There are moments which make me think about how I live my life, and how blessed I am to be able to even type this.

I get so caught up in social media, in being an “it” girl that has thousands of Instagram followers, people that want to know what she wears and where she gets it.

If you must know, I bought this shirt for $6 at a thrift store, the sunglasses were on sale for $10 at Pacsun, the shoes a Christmas present and the jeans were my older sisters. I don’t have name brands to share with you, the most I’ve ever worn is Tommy Hilfiger, and am okay with that right now.

I want to own and wear clothes that do not create a facade about me, but rather have a style all my own. I may never be one of the girls that pop up on the explore page on Instagram with over 1,000 likes but maybe the few that look at my outfits and my accounts get to know someone they genuinely like.

I’m tired of trying to copy the pictures I see on Tumblr, and not use the word “inspired” when I mean, “I wish I was the girl in the picture”

For all those bloggers that do have such beautiful photos and have started careers as bloggers, I am so proud of you and hope your blogs reflect how amazing you are. It’s time for me to do the same.

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The Truth

Hello everyone! i hope you all are having a great week so far. I’ve been busy with finals taking place in the next two weeks, but I wanted to share a story with you all. Its something that I was ashamed of, that made me feel like I was not a “normal” person because of this. Here is the story of my birth, a complicated mix of many emotions.

My twin and I were born on October 27,1996 in Portland, Oregon. Our mom was 6 months pregnant when she went into labor with us. She was rushed to Portland from Salem, where we currently live. The possibility of us surviving was less than 5%, and luckily here I am writing this story.

We were born weighing 1 pound 0 ounces, a first for the Oregon Health and Sciences University hospital where we were born in. We had major complications due to underdevelopment, and were kept in incubators for months. Past Christmas our parents would drive to Portland from Salem every day to see our progress, where we were slowly getting better with the help of medicine and an even better group of nurses that we still see from time to time. The pictures that we’ve seen of us showed our progress, with the first ones being that we easily fit in the palm of our dads hand.

We got to go home after months of anguish, but the struggle was not over. We had to go the hospital continuously for check ups, and make sure we were moving along accordingly. My twin had more issues to face, such as having to use a walker at an early age to learn how to walk, and having physical therapy for appropriate movements of the body.

This experience has always been something I’ve shied away from. It always made me feel weak but now I know that was my strength.  That she and I were given an opportunity that many aren’t lucky enough to have. Knowing that has made me strong, pushing forward when things get rough.

Things have not been hard for me, but education has. It seems I am in this consistent cycle of failure, never knowing how to pass classes I’ve taken multiple times, always making mistakes that get me the same result, and when I try to focus and study more, the results aren’t in my favor. These situations have made me think of giving up, moving and figuring out what I can do that makes me money and that I don’t hate, but I have invested so much time that giving up isn’t an option. I was put on this earth for a reason, even if I dont know what it is yet.

I wanted to thank all 280 of you that follow this blog of mine. Every time the number gets higher I am shocked by all the support that is being given to me. Everyone reading this gives me inspiration to keep working towards my goals, because I know I will get to wherever I need to be.

Sunny weather

Happy Thursday! I am currently working on my biology study guides that are in due in two weeks. This course is quite hard, so I have to focus and make sure I get the grade I want.

With that being said, I know that means a lot of time spent working on homework.

This outfit is one I wore after classes, when I was done with my day and wanted to spend some time with my twin. She (and the rest of my family but my older sister) are in California.

This is my version of a sunny place, and I can’t wait to be able to hangout with friends without having to stay home to study. I have taken more outfit pictures that I am quite excited about. Let me know what you think of this outfit below. Have a great day! IMG_6393IMG_6395IMG_6394IMG_6391

Denim on denim

Happy Monday everyone! Sorry for being so inactive, I’ve had tests to study for and between that and work it’s been a crazy week.

I am back with a basic outfit I have never worn before. I love wearing black tank tops as shirts, and I dresses it up with my go to light wash denim jacket, ripped jeans and the vans I wear all the time. I was really busy on Thursday so I didn’t have time to put any makeup on, besides I don’t wear it too often so it wasn’t anything new to go makeup less.

I am so excited for spring! It is gonna be in the 80’s here in Oregon and I can’t wait to bring out my skirts and dresses that have been neglected for months!

Stay tuned for some spring outfits x

Always striving

Hi everyone! Happy April! I can’t believe it is already April! It’s gonna be an amazing month, since today is the first day of my new term!

It has been quite interesting this year, I’ve tried time and time again to reach my goals and I am reminded that rewards do not come easy, so I have to truly realize how much I want something and go after it.

This college degree has been kicking my butt since 2015, but I will not give up. All the nights filled with emotions will lead me to a better future, even if it takes longer than 4 years. I know some may think I am wasting my time, but it will be worth it when I am doing what I love for the rest of my life. As I move forward in my education, I’ve been faced with reevaluating what exactly that is.

Do I love history or fashion more? The safe option is history, where I can work in museums to help design them and appropriately try and represent different cultures from around the world. I already know so much history, it’s engraved in my mind from high school. It gives me such an amazing feeling to know I am learning about those before me and what their lives were like.

Fashion is my one true love. Since I discovered weworewhat I loved the idea of working in fashion, especially if that meant I could share my personal style and make a living that way. Fast forward 5 years after making this blog, and I am no where close to that goal, but here I am, still thinking about the day I can finally write a sponsored post. I understand that might never happen, so I focus on something that is a sure thing, such as a history degree.

Well , thank you for reading my thoughts. Let me know any suggestions you may have on my career goals.