Hello everyone and welcome to my blog.
*There will be mentions of body issues and eating habits in this post*
I didn’t even realize how long of a break I had taken from my blog and fashion Instagram, I needed to focus on other things and take a break from social media.
These pictures are from January I believe, when I had a day off from class and wanted to make sure I got out and took some outfit pictures. Now that I drive I find it easier to look for locations to take pictures in, allowing me to enjoy surroundings I have never seen before.
This was taken outside of a nursing home outside of the city, I parked and took a lot of pictures. I was excited to wear the fanny pack I had bought at urban outfitters, as well as the shirt I had thrifted.
When I look at these pictures, I remind myself the unrealistic expectations I have for myself. I deleted the Instagram app from my phone because all I would see is really thin girls that travel the world and wear amazing clothes. There is absolutely nothing wrong that, but I was (and sometimes still am) striving to have every picture I take be as good as theirs.
Since the start of the year I have been obsessing over my weight, swapping healthy alternatives for the food I love. I end up eating black bean burgers, smoothie bowls and vegan burritos.
I tried to find a good eating style for me, but fell into a hole of self doubt and disgust whenever I looked at myself in the mirror. My confidence has plummeted, even when I eat well and exercise, it feels as though I can never be happy with the way I look.
Spring is starting, which means shorts and crop tops. I love those pieces of clothing, but am not at the point where I feel comfortable enough in my body to wear those yet.
I am going to make it a mission to be kind to my body, to be more aware of what I my body needs to be healthy.
Thank you so much for reading, see you next time.